'disengaged' - m. diver

hudson, new york

lotsa hot girls dancing
jen is down from buffalo
she smells sweet. sweat sweet
girl sweat sweet

-muffy! i'm so glad to see you!
-hey, babe. how's it going?
-cool. can we sit down? i'm so fucked up

we sit
she holds me
her tongue down my throat

-jen? what? where's that from?
-muffy, i missed you so much!

back at my place
robinson street

-wait, muffy, here you want some?
-no, jen, i'm cool

sniff.

hmmm...this is new

-since i left muffy, i've just been having a lot of sex, ya know, like guys, girls, whatever
-oh
-i think i'm bi now.
-oh

sniff.

-and like, it's just sex. sex without feelings, emotions. just fun. ya know?

-right
-you know how it is, muffy, you've worked in porn. you just totally separate yourself
-yeah, i know how it is

she strokes my arm and kisses me

-c'mon, muffy. doncha you wanna do it? finally? after we've waited so long?

- i guess.